Finally, I Was Gone


Finally, I Was Gone
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Flow like a river my thoughts,
One, two, and three somehow I can’t get to four,
I can’t think straight, with this black shadow hovering,
I always go back to what if I just disappear,
Maybe it will make some people live with a smile,
Finally, their burden is gone, bye they wave rigorously,
At the back of their mind anxiety creeps to celebrate victory,
I’m gone, the useless, no ambition, inconsiderate imbecile.

They would order a feast, at that favourite joint of theirs,
Such a lively place and full life, 
A meeting place without discrimination,
The Cîroc type of rich, cider gang and brandy boys,
No one cared, it was all about food, music and good vibes,
It was at this time I felt alive, a day off from my dead, soulless self,
I was no longer moody, careless and inconsiderate in their eyes,
I few vhoshos and rhumba dance to their entertainment,
Somehow the complaints faded, I lived in such moments,
A bottle of Jameson would do the trick.

I was gone, their burden…A special occasion it would be,
Johnso’s jokes, Chenesai’s killer dances and aunt’s laughter,
What a pleasant sight and scene, I was finally gone,
Feeding their souls, the battle had been won,
Burden, useless soul was down 10 feet under,
It was now the ground and creatures under that bear the burden.

I lay there peacefully, no whisper of negativity in my ear,
I was free, my dream had come true,
A happy ending. Their burden was gone,
And I get my peace in the process,
A win, win.

Only in my thoughts…Finally, I was gone…






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