Dear Old Self!!!
Dear Old Self, it has been a long time since we have talked. Your silence even to your inner thoughts is really deafening. Are you okay? Why is it so hard to open up – or at least to yourself? Just allowing yourself to feel everything, letting emotions play out and not be such an emotionless creature. I know you been through the worst and you bury it in your deep depths and at the back of your mind. Daddy died when you were just an infant, neglect from your blood, you weren’t born with a silver spoon, heartbreaks, and fear of losing what is left of your family ties you down. "Suppress it, suppress it", you tell yourself. Wearing them out of sight, out of mind mentality with pride. As long it is not visible you bury it and choose what to remember. The bad experience and pain are evaded at any cost, of all that, it has left you on a defensive mode and a runner. It has become your defensive mechanism to protect what is left of your heart. Your search in the depths of ou